Targeting the Symptoms over the Root Cause of Sex Addiction

    I’ve kept most of my writing unpublished because there’s been a pattern in my cognitive processing that had to be addressed before I decided to move forward with this page. 

What’s been taking up time lately?  Work. 

    It’s what’s eradicated my preoccupation with policies regarding homelessness, and to those who aren’t aware yet, the state of Florida is going to pass a law prohibiting public encampments and sleeping in public.  The state is developing a plan to find an area suitable for people to seek refuge from the streets — if they don’t accept the help, they will be sent to jail. 

    I’ll tell you one thing, bro, I’m so glad that I checked out in time.  It just so happened that Miami was cracking down on the homeless back in October, when I was already trying to admit myself into rehab. 

    I spent November and December just working the program, trying to get through it— but the one thing that I cannot stand is being told what to do.  I couldn’t meet the requirements of living at a halfway house so I took the first paycheck I could earn and left to be on my own. 

    The goal is to live in a space with the least people possible. Most preferably:  0 & just me— it’s not gonna happen overnight, though. 

    The process of getting myself out of the mental state of homelessness has been running its course since 2017.  For the past 6 years I’ve simply developed the foundational knowledge needed to survive out on my own and built a skill set with a purpose which hasn’t been explored yet. 

    I always get this surge of motivation to develop content describing the lifestyle and then I’ll just decide to delete everything. Facebook. IG. Everything. I just don’t use these platforms anymore and it feels more as if I use it for information more than anything— it’s just a way to be aware and staying connected to what’s around me. 

    There’s a pre misconception about hackers. I know there is because when I first started, I didn’t know what the word meant.  Learning about ethical hacking has taught me so much about myself: I really missed out on a lot by pursuing studies in Theater.  I would’ve loved to focus on computer science back when I was in high school, I just wasn’t thinking that way before. 

    Now, it’s time for me to take a break because there’s really no point in continuing to build knowledge in a field currently still under development. With AI, quantum computing, and 3D spatial computing, I think we’re entering a different era of technology.  There’s really no point in specializing in computer languages when I know I’ll have a system which could write and explain code.  There’s really no use in trying to compete in a market with people who have been studying computers since they were very young.  

    I know I like technology.  I’m just trying to figure out what specific element within the roadmap interests me the most. 

Configuring a computer is always fun. So is network management. I don’t know.  

    I just know for the first time in quite a while, I’m not enrolled in school for the semester and I really don’t have to worry about “learning” right now. 

    The process of getting myself out of the mental state of homelessness has been long and arduous.  I’ve gone to rehab 4 times.  I’ve been to half a dozen different halfway houses.  Baker acted 13 (with one time being in New York); I’ve had another half dozen bad roommate experiences; I’ve worked construction, landscaping, hospitality— I’ve shoveled snow for cash daily…. I’ve also begged on the streets for money.   The trials of error are at a stop now because I’ve pretty much gone through the worst I could possibly tolerate.  

    I’m all too familiar with the consequences from not planning or properly managing my money; I’ve suffered when I rely solely on luck; and I’ve been locked up even when I didn’t think I deserved to be.  

    It’s pretty hard to describe in detail every minor experience I’ve ever had to go through when the world is clearly facing a crisis regarding immigration.  My downfalls really don’t compare to the people migrating here.  Or the victims of war. 

Did you hear about the migrant crisis in New York? 

    Chances are..those people are going to receive help faster than our homeless natives.  My guess would be cause they’re more willing to work for less, and…more importantly, they’re more willing to work at all. 

I’ve been homeless before…I know the excuses we make whenever we’re down on our luck on the streets: 

• Housing is too expensive..
• I can’t find a job..
• The shelters suck..

No…

The problem is we don’t respect homeless people who are suffering from a mental illness stemming from a disease of addiction with alcohol or narcotics or people who just don’t take care of themselves when they’re are very capable of doing so...

The problem is fentanyl. 

Heroin. 

Alcohol. 

    I feel that now that the government is starting to pass laws against homelessness, that there’s going to be a shift in what drugs are going to be used.  

    People are going to be looking to stay up if they can’t sleep on the street. 

    That’s why the government is taking this stance. Cause they know that it could possibly reduce the abuse on opioids, thus changing the trending drug to use— therefore, people will lose sleep, lose their minds….they’ll be forced to either get help or they’ll get locked up in jail.  

    I saw that chess move back in October. I’m just very surprised in the manner which they’re addressing people living on the streets.

Colorado has created these areas designated for a tent city.
Other states don’t believe that works and want to utilize the Florida Model.
California is just a complete disaster, people are taking initiative by building squats in underground caves and shit…

    I’m living here in the South and I’m realizing there aren’t many people on the streets.

    I’m not too worried about those people, though— what I want to see is a solution for this housing crisis we are currently facing.

    I don’t want to spend the rest of my life working 40 hours a week just to be holed up in halfway houses and hostels. Cmon, drug dealers get more out of life by taking risks— at the expense of who and what, though?

    To live in a world where people cater to them but can’t function cause they’re addicted to the very drug they profit from? I mean— this is why narcotics shouldn’t be prohibited because when we increase access to something, we’re less likely to use whatever that is because it’s no longer scarce. When something is scarce, it’s going to consume all our time and energy because that’s all we are spending time trying to find.

It worked with Marijuana, didn’t it?

    I used to smoke like a fiend before I left to Colorado. Not only that, there would be days I would be wasting my time waiting on the plug just for a gram of weed. As soon as I discovered what a ‘medicinal marijuana dispensary’ was, things changed and I realized that life wasn’t all just about getting high. Marijuana is a tool to me now.

I’m just happy I’m always ahead of the game, you know?

    When I was in New York, it didn’t take me 2 days before I realized there was a chance I could be dead in 3-4 months from freezing in the cold. I didn’t even fathom what it would be like to sleep at a shelter because I just knew that it wouldn’t work out. I went back home.

    When I was living on the streets for a month October 2023, something was telling me to get off because I wouldn’t have been able to get by the way I used to in 2017.

That’s a long fucking time.
I’m tired of relying on luck.
This time, I need to put in the work required for a life not many people get to experience.